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3 months is probably the longest time that I have not updated this blog. The last few months has been a "quiet" chaos for me. Why I say "quiet" is because even though my schedule was pretty packed and I'm always running off to Nagoya whenever I have the chance to, it has been a peaceful kind of chaos if I even make sense.
It has been pretty hard for me to come to terms with myself because other than ending relationships early in the year, I have been fighting my own demons as well. I know I am not the best I can be but I'm still working on it and want to be a better person to the people I have in my life right now.
A few new exciting things are in the works. My schedule from now till October is already packed and I'm really looking forward to all of it. I'll be working hard for the next two months because I am setting up an exhibition booth in September at the Singapore Toy, Games and Comics Convention with fellow artist and friend, Sarah Thursday. I'm pretty excited and nervous at the same time. I'll be flying out to Hokkaido in July to celebrate my birthday with my favorite band in the world, in August I'll be touring around Japan again - Osaka, Nagoya, and probably a few more places. I'm also planning some photo shoots along the way. Still contemplating if I should go back to Australia in September for AFI because they only come to this part of the world once every 4 years.
Speaking of bands, one of my favorite bands, letlive. has decided to call it quits. I was really devasted when I found out from Jason's announcement on Instagram. Even though I have not been a fan of letlive. for a long time, they really did help me put back faith I once had in music. I'm so glad and relieved I decided to fly back home in January to see them twice. I was just in utter shock on the day I found out because it was so sudden. It is really difficult for me to love a band so much like that, so I'm really bummed out. I try to tell myself "Hey, at least you saw them before this happened." I was drawing out a lot of inspiration from them so, yes, I am pretty upset about them disbanding.
I don't know if I will continue writing on this blog because there are so many things in my life now that I will like to keep private. So maybe instead, I'll just be posting photos of my life with no captions and only write about things I'm obsessing about.
Lately, I just don't have the energy and time to write detailed blog entries anymore. To top it off, I have another blog on my website, sanatoriium.com to work on as well. I refuse to let this blog die because I have so many memories here but let's just see how well I can keep up. Meanwhile, Copper Colored Quiet by letlive. has been on repeat a lot.
My world is on fire
And I've got nowhere to watch it burn
No one to admire
How well I disappear
Don't call me a liar
We'll cross the bridges I meant to burn
You reek of desire
That's why there's no one here
There's no one here to watch me as I fall asleep
They assassinate the ones who dream
And if I got it all, I got it for you
