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It's a funny thing about comin' home. Looks the same, smells the same, feels the same. You'll realize what's changed  is you.

Benjamin Button

Just got home yesterday morning and decided to lay off all social networks for a day, just to take in what's here in my comfy little home, laying in bed talking to little sis and mom. It feels as though nothing has happened in the last three months but when I look at my arm with my tattoo on it, I'm reminded of how much I've changed and grown.

Of course, I was really upset about leaving Japan. I was crying for the last three nights and even on the day I left, I cried infront of Yuri. Cried some more on the bus en route to Haneda airpot, as it passed by Odaiba. I was stupid enough to listen to my favorite band on the flight and cried some more, and cried hard. My eyes were so swollen by the time I got to see little sis. She was waiting for me at the airport.

I was telling Yuri right before I left that I felt like I was leaving my happiness behind and how I thought I would never be able to be this happy again. What she said was right, the most important thing is that I've found it and know where to go to feel whole again. 

Because really, I never thought I would be able to fill up that emptiness I had for the last couple of years and remember when I said I was hoping for a miracle right before I left to Nagoya for the first time? I was wrong, because my miracles were already with and infront of me the whole time.

Living in Japan has made me enjoy the simple things so much more. Honestly, Yuri and I hardly do anything exciting together (other than our Nagoya trips), but we are so contented with the little things like, looking up at the stars on Christmas and running to temples at 3am just so...

I've never been so happy for a long period of time and I'm so grateful to have met so many amazing people on this adventure. I'm not ready to end it, so it will be continued in summer. :)

Part II is going to be more crazy, fun and chaotic once I get back to the land of the rising sun. Till then...