119. o' thirteen

I can't believe my year. 2013 has been as good to me as 2012 has, maybe even kinder. Most of my 2013 was spent going back and forth Japan and then finally in October, moved to Japan for a few months. Japan has always been so good to me, I will always treasure and cherish my time here.

Reading back on my resolutions on 2013, I'm proud to say I have accomplished most of them. I got my industrial piercing, tattoo, watched lynch., met Yuri and came back to Japan and even stayed for the last couple of months. The only thing that was lacking in 2013 was my art, I felt like I lost my inspiration and myself somewhere, because of that, I'm more pumped than ever to do art once I get back.

I think I made the best decisions in 2013. First, was going to the therapist and finally getting help. I honestly didn't know how bad my problem with anxiety and depression was. I always thought it was normal to feel certain ways about things. I'm glad I helped myself, after taking my pills, I feel like a brand new, happier person.

Trading my Soundwave trip back to Melbourne for lynch. in Tokyo. That trip changed me. It was the first time I got so many compliments from guys, band guys coming up to me and asking for my number. Honestly, I never thought much of myself, I never thought I was attractive in any way. So it was nice to feel pretty for once in my life. Seeing lynch. at Zepp Divercity in March had an impact on me. I've never felt so happy in my life to see any band. After being a fan of theirs for two years, that happiness I felt when they took the stage, I can't ever explain it. It only made me want to see them more.

Then, going back to Japan again in August to finally meet Yuri. I can't believe we've been talking to each other non-stop for two years online. I've never met anyone where I could just talk to forever and understand me so well. I'm so glad I've met her, I wouldn't know what I would do without her. I wouldn't even be in Japan for 3 months if it wasn't for her.

Finally going to Summer Sonic! Seeing Bullet For My Valentine, Metallica, coldrain and the GazettE! I can remember when little sis and I will always talk about going to Summer Sonic when I was still a teenager. I'm so happy to have experienced a music festival in a new country other than my hometown. My summer in Japan was psychotic! Even with the heat killing me, I was so happy. Seeing lynch. for the second time only made me even more crazy about them because for once in my life, I just let go and be crazy, hardcore headbanging, getting lost in their music. I never do it for any other band. It only made me want to see them even more which led me to staying her for 3 months.

Probably the best decision I made in my life was to stay here. I've grown and learnt so much about myself, I've grown into a better and stronger person. I got to experience Autumn, Halloween and actually liking Christmas and New Year's. Getting to know Yuri better and travelling around Japan. I'm so glad I got to other parts of Japan, especially Nagoya.

Everything started going crazy after seeing lynch. for the third time at their Freaks Addicts Tour Beyond. A few days later, I went to Nagoya with Yuri because I wanted to see DEATHGAZE and EAT YOU ALIVE and that was the day I met AK. I didn't think much about him because I liked Hazuki the most, but meeting him made me really happy. I still remember hugging Yuri and jumping around after meeting him because I was just that happy. I am surprised he was actually that nice and cute in person. ><

Travelling to a rural part of Japan was something I always wanted to do but didn't have the courage to because my Japanese is just soooo bad. Nabana No Sato was so magical, it took my breathe away. I am so thankful Yuri was with me. Finally getting my tattoo in Nagoya. I wanted it for so long, it meant so much more that it was done in Nagoya and to commemorate such a good trip. Honestly, before leaving for Nagoya I can remember myself wishing for a miracle to happen. I really didn't need to wish for a miracle because both lynch. and Yuri are already my miracles.

Coming back to Tokyo, and finally seeing my other favourite band, THE NOVEMBERS. I thought I didn't love them anymore, but seeing them live made me realise I still did and my love for them is totally different from lynch. I was filled was so much happiness seeing them play music and getting lost in it.

Then going to Kyoto and Osaka on my own. Little sis coming to visit in December. lynch.'s THE BLACKEST NIGHTMARE Zepp Tour in Tokyo and Nagoya. Meeting AK totally changed my feelings about going to their lives now. Now, he recognises me in the crowd and sometimes smiles. I never expected my favorite band to give me any form of attention but to be honest, when they do, it fills me up so much. Especially their Zepp Nagoya live. Literally killed me, made me the happiest girl. I was smiling the entire time I was on the train back to Tokyo. I'm so glad I went to Nagoya just for them. They were so happy at that live.

Going to see THE NOVEMBERS again before Christmas and bumping into Yusuke Kobayashi before the live even started. I never thought I would be able to meet anyone from THE NOVEMBERS either but, I'm just grateful I did.

Spending Christmas and New Years with Yuri was the best ones I've ever had. I've never loved Christmas and New Years so much.

Going to see EAT YOU ALIVE final live made me sad but glad I did, I never realised how much I actually loved their music. Meeting Yuri's friends after that, just chilling and realising how certain things are in such close reach really does scare me a little. And finally, falling in love with Nagoya again.

2013 was a wonderful year, and I didn't think it would be better than 2012. I love 2013. Thank you for being so kind and gracious to me, I'm going to make 2014 even better! But really, I just want to concentrate on my art now. 2014 will be the year I make it.

2013 songs of the year are both by no one other than lynch. The first half of the year's anthem is BALLAD. I still remember little sis and I walking around Shibuya and Harajuku and have lynch.'s advertisement truck drive by and whenever I would hear Hazuki's voice somewhere, my heart would jump up and we'll both start looking for the truck. I still remember seeing the truck for the first time, as it passed by me in Shibuya and I was like "lynch.!!!!" with my hand stretched out. lol. Makes me so happy when I think back. Made me so excited to see them for the first time.

The later half of the year belonged to NIGHT. It's such an epic song for lynch. to end their sets to. I always picture little sis's face smiling back at me when they play this song. We will be both singing along to it, singing to our little hearts out. Also, both of us will always be like "lynch..~~~~~" whenever NIGHT was playing on the big screens in Shibuya. As you can tell, I really do love this band.

I really hope I will be able to live up 2014. 2014 is already looking good with all my evil plans :)