207. here we go again

my vscocam account lately.

It was an eventful (mournful) week with the passing of Singapore's first founding father, Zayn Malik leaving One Direction and also a plane crashing into the French Alps. In less important news, it's my last week here in Singapore so dad came back to spend some time with the family and it has been very stressful. 

In short, I'm more than happy to be going back to Japan tomorrow and start afresh again. I'm not even there yet and I have so many things planned out already. Shows to go to, cafes to dine at, places to go, things to see... people to meet. 

It's kind of weird thinking that I'll be going to start classes soon, it's been a long time since I've had (regular/normal) classes. The last couple of years were... a blank, when I was still in  art college, my classes were anything but ordinary. Figure drawing classes, painting classes and all that, so it's strange to me to be sitting in a classroom again studying from textbooks. I'm actually looking forward to it though, I hope I won't be a bad student this time. I'm famous for being late and skipping classes.

We had a nice family dinner on Saturday evening at Catalunya which had a really nice view of Marina Bay Sands, the Merlion and Esplanade. The food was pretty good, I guess all of us were happy to try something new instead of going to Hyatt Hotel for the 933494893rd time. The cuisine was Spanish and they had interesting cocktails, I tried Alice in Wonderland (how typical of me) which had a nice mixture of coconut and Green Day (just for the namesake, haha) nothing special here, just tasted like a better version of gin lime. 

We ordered an avocado roll (pictured above 1st picture 2nd row), Octopus Catunya Style, a garden salad, the traditional suckling pig (1st row, 3rd picture) with mushrooms on the side, to finish off, we had Catalan Ice Cream (their version of creme brulee) and Torrija (similar to bread butter pudding). After dinner, we walked around for a little bit before heading home. 

Today was spent finishing up my packing. Packing is always stressful. Right now I'm all tucked in my bed ready to get a night's rest because my flight is so early tomorrow. To be honest, looking at my feed on my vscocam account just made me realised how unproductive I am here, so it's best I head back to Japan sooner. Next time I'll be writing from Tokyo, hopefully with something more interesting.

206. anastasia

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Yesterday was a good day, I bumped into Mad in town and I finally have the Blu-ray for the 1997 animation film, Anastasia. Aside from growing up to Disney films, Anastasia has got to be my absolute favorite non Disney one as a kid. For two simple reasons : 

1. Awesome (sing-a-long) soundtrack 

2. My birth name was actually Anastasia.

This animation actually holds a ton of wonderful memories for me, I remember going on roadtrips with my then bestfriend (we lost contact long ago, since I was 14) and she would put this soundtrack in the car and we would sing along to all the songs. Her mom and my mom became good friends through us and we would always have outings where her mom would drive and she, my sister and I will be at the back of the car singing to so many soundtracks but Anastasia was always my favorite. 

All the outings stopped when we turned 10 because her mom was critically ill with stomach cancer and sadly, she passed away the year after. My bestfriend was only 11 when she lost her mother. Since then, my mom always had her over at our place until I was 14. My mom still keeps a photo of all of us, my family, her and her mom in our living room. I forgot how we lost contact but I hope wherever she is, she is doing well and I hope we get to meet again one day.

Last night was the first time in years since I've watched Anastasia and being an adult now, I appreciate it much more. The background art work in this is beautifully painted, I wouldn't say it's my favorite but still, well done. (My favorite background art work is Disney's Sleeping Beauty.) My favorite part is when Anya sings to Once Upon a December, and all the "spirits" dancing in the abandoned palace. It definitely does give a haunting feeling.

This isn't one of those films that I particularly like for the art, but more of an emotional attachment to it. I think I'll re-watch it a couple more time before going back to Japan.

Oh, before I forget, why my name was Anastasia? My mom named me Anastasia (yes after the Russian Princess) at birth but dropped it before I turned a year old because she felt it was too much, my name was Anastasia Lyana Lee and I also had two chinese names. I think she got too excited at naming her first child, haha. Yes, she also dropped the extra chinese name. I kind of wished she left it as Lyana Anastasia Lee just because I like the sound of it better than my current name.

Only 8 days till I leave again and I can feel the anxiety creeping in.

205. chapter

cafe hunting.

first meal in seoul, korea.

shimokita.

going on adventures.

if only summer was always this pretty.

my heart.

totoro hunting.

endless.

change.

All these photos are old or never posted, but I feel like this somehow was needed to be written down. It's like I'm closing another chapter of my being in Japan because a new one is going to unfold again. It's a weird feeling coming home and leaving so soon again. This time it feels much scarier than it did before and I don't know if that's a good thing.

204. black metal and kids

Yesterday was a good day, I finally got to see Mad after so many months being away. The last time I saw her was at her engagement party, which was in October. We didn't do anything exciting, we just caught up over coffee and dropped by an art supply store and book store before going for dinner, then meeting up with her fiancee. It was nice talking to her again about music and one of the reasons why I was even her friend in the first place, black metal!!!

I haven't been talking to her much about music in general in a long long time because we both were so out of the loop on things but I was telling her about some recent bands that I've been into and showed her one of the bands I like vocalist's Instagram account, and she got so excited seeing he posted some black metal stuff. Also showed her some videos from Knotfest and talked about Lamd of God. I really miss our school days and after classes we would hang out pigging out somewhere just talking about music, and I always loved listening to her stories about all the satanic rituals or how dark some of the bands she liked are.

She finally sent me some photos from her engagement, but these are the best 3 that I liked.

Hopefully we can meet up one more time before I head back to Japan. It's weird right? Being an adult, suddenly you have too little time for yourself because you are busy juggling work, your relationship, your career, future plans... so much stuff to think about. And we also got on the subject of having kids. I'm pretty sure she will have kids in the near future because she adores children but I can't say the same for me because I'm not really a big fan of having kids and being tied down. It's one thing if my boyfriend ties me down, but having kids is a totally different story.

But that is still way ahead in the future, so when the time comes, we'll talk about that subject again. 

So little time left here and I'm not sure if I am happy to head back to Japan so soon. Only time will tell.