Thursday, 17 July 2014

150. thread dance


Yesterday was the third day in a row heading out to Shibuya, met up with Hajime for the first time. We've been following each other on tumblr for almost two years, we started talking to each other on there because of our love for indigo la End. We met up at Tower Records and went for lunch at Silkream, this time I just got dessert because I wasn't in the mood for a heavy meal. 

After lunch, he brought me to the Shibuya LAD MUSICIAN store. I've only been to the one in Harajuku. He introduced me to the staff there, the guy at the store yesterday was the one that's always snapped for the brand. He's actually better looking in person and he was nice too, so I was really surprised. It's funny because that LAD store is in the same area Yuri and I always hang out but we just never walk to that street, there were actually plenty of cool shops there. I'll probably go back another day to look around.

After that, we went to Tsutaya and was just looking at some books and cds. I always love getting to know a person that way, looking at books and showing each other what we like, and also, with music, just talking about what you listen to in middle school, high school and even now. He was telling me about how he used to like visual kei back in junior high but now he mostly listens to indie. Also mostly telling me how there isn't that many cute little boutiques in Chicago. 

After that we walked to Harajuku, to the other LAD store. I decided to buy new shoes because my creepers are dying. It has been dying since last August and I haven't found a suitable one to replace it because most of my outfits fit it so well. Ended up buying yet another pair from Tokyo Boppers. It's still my favorite shoe brand and it was cool yesterday at the store because the guy was actually making the platforms and I was just watching him make it. We both agreed that the girl that helped me with the shoes was really cute. 

We also went to the Comme des Garcons Trading Museum at GYRE. I always walk pass that building but never go into it. -__- I love the leather jackets display there, so pretty. I know close to nothing about fashion but obviously love looking at things I can never afford. We also went to the 1LDK and MoMa Design store. He took me to the rooftop of GYRE, which had such a pretty view of Harajuku and you can actually see Tower Records from there. 


We talked for a little bit there while watching the sunset, I was surprised he knew who Felix is. I told him that we were friends and I met him last November in Kyoto. So funny how the world is so small. Mostly talked about Chicago and Melbourne, was a little strange talking about Chicago, Illinois especially because my ex is from there. I haven't talked to anyone about Chicago since him, but obviously I didn't tell Hajime about the ex, it would make him feel weird. We spent a good time on the rooftop and went to Opening Ceremony after that.

After some more window shopping, we were getting hungry so I took him to A to Z Cafe, since he likes Yoshitomo Nara as well. I was starving, I ordered a salad and the rice bowl with braised pork belly. He ordered beer and hamburger steak. There we started talking about relationship problems, his problem with a girl back in Chicago is almost the same situation I have right now. It was so nice to talk about personal stuff as well, because before that we were mostly talking about bands, artists and all that, which is also nice, but to let out frustration about the things that were actually bothering us is another thing.

We started walking back to Shibuya at about 9ish, when he told me he's also in band and has been playing drums for about 11 years and guitar for 2. I swear, I can't run away from band guys, I give up. Once back in Shibuya, we were sitting somewhere around Hachiko where one of the big screens was playing the promotional video for the guy that I'm having problems with, so I just showed Haji that he's the drummer of that band. He was so funny, he was like :O and told me he looks cool. I told nah, he's not that cool and showed him that guy's line display picture and Haji started laughing and said he IS a dork, which made me laugh so hard. 

We parted ways at almost 11 and probably meeting again to go to Odaiba. Honestly, I was pretty worried with how this outing would turn out but I actually enjoyed myself and glad he did too. It's funny all the people I actually have fun with are the people I met on Tumblr. First of course is Yuri, then Felix (which I haven't even wrote about since last November! Maybe a throwback?), Elaine, who I went to Shimokitazawa with and fan girl over THE NOVEMBERS and now Hajime. 

Funny how things always turn out. Tomorrow is my birthday and I just hope, I have a nice simple quiet one. I just don't want to think about the unnecessary.

Wednesday, 16 July 2014

149. greener


Today I went to meet up with Nana who I haven't seen in almost 2 years. I was a little worried as to how it would turn out because we have known each other for 10 years but we've both changed so much over time, I was thinking if we would have things to talk about, let alone get along. I met her in Shibuya and brought her to my favourite places because everyone keeps asking me where I get that nice dessert.

We went to Silkream for lunch first, and ended up only getting pasta because both of us were craving for crepes instead, and she was telling me she didn't know where had good ones. So I brought her to my favourite one in Harajuku. I got the Matcha ice-cream and cheesecake as usual, it's my love. Then, brought her to the salon because she wanted to get her hair done badly. Ended up spending almost 4 hours because of cutting, bleaching and dying her hair. Also got my bangs cut again because it was getting too long.

Since it was already going to be 9 and most places were closing or closed, we decided to go to Tower Records Cafe. They were having a Rilakumma special menu, so we both just ordered curry rice and she ordered cheesecake after that. I don't really like Rilakumma but the food was cute :3

Hanging out with her was better than I expected because we were just talking about all the crazy things we did when we were 14 and 15. Chasing Taiwanese boy bands, going to their concerts, passing out in the middle of nowhere, not only with her but with Steph, Rachel and a few more other friends. Steph was actually talking to me on Facebook while I was with Nana, which she thought was funny too. Hopefully she can come visit us in August, I would be happy if the 3 of us could get to hang out again because all of us have been in different parts of the world for the last couple of years, it would be nice to have a "reunion" if you would say.

Can't believe it'll be another rotation around the sun and I'll be a quarter of a century this Friday. It's crazy because I met up with Nana today and was just reminiscing our teenage life. It feels like centuries ago... and I know I would never do those crazy things again. Feels weird, a little lonely and sad all at the same time. It's hard to explain it. 

This week will be packed and I'm actually looking forward to it. :)

Saturday, 12 July 2014

148. limbo


I've finally found some places that I like in Singapore, it's a fucking miracle! Little sis's work place is located in a really nice quiet neighborhood and I really do enjoy it. Though there is a chokehold of hipsters, I can easily ignore people. 

The last week was spent back in Sunny Singapore with the family. Little sis has finally graduated from University and I'm so proud of her. Being back here made me realise some things, this place that I can never call my home, is actually a safe place for me - or what I like to call it, limbo. 

I know for sure if I stay here for too long, I can never be happy but I won't get hurt as much or at all. All I feel when I'm here is numb. Sometimes, it's better to when there's a series of unfortunate events and I just need to heal, this place is perfect for it. I don't know how to deal with all the things that have been happening lately because it just doesn't make sense in my head. I'm not so much as mad at him, it's more like I'm mad at the situation and what the fuck is the world trying to do to me. 

I'll be heading back to Japan in a few hours, it's strange but even with the mess right now, I know I am happier there. I know I should stay away from guys but it seems like it's impossible. Things just keep popping up and I can't do anything about it. I don't know what to think anymore, at one point I was so sure of what I want, who I want, but right now, all I have in my head is  "So... what now?"

I know one thing is for sure, and that one thing that I always and will always want is happiness.


Sunday, 6 July 2014

147. the grand budapest hotel


"You see, there are still faint glimmers of civilisation left in this barbaric slaughterhouse
 that was once known as humanity. Indeed that's what we provide in our own modest, 
humble, insignificant... oh, fuck it."

The Grand Budapest Hotel (2014), Wes Anderson 


I finally got to watch this film on my flight back home even though it was censored at some parts, I still really enjoyed it, I was so immersed in this world, it really took my mind off things. I didn't have the time to catch it in cinemas before I left for Japan, so I'm glad I finally could see it on the plane.

Thank you Mr. Anderson, for this wonderful film.




Friday, 4 July 2014

146. gone

I'll be going home for a couple of days and I honestly think the time can't be any more perfect. I need to clear my head and heart and come back to Tokyo with a fresh start once again. Today I woke up and felt much better about things, because when I think about it,  I know that I haven't done anything wrong in all the horrible situations that happened during the last few months. If I did, all the people that hurt me wouldn't still be in my life.

Going back will be good so I can slowly figure out what I want for myself.

The thought about that country still irks me to some extent. I don't think anyone would understand how much I hate it. Whenever people ask me where I am from, I say Australia because I am Australian on paper and passport, but to ask my ethnicity and where my family is from really annoys me. I don't like to be associated with that country, so now on, I'll just tell them to guess but I'll never say unless we become friends.

Hopefully the rest of 2014 will be good to me and I can't believe my birthday is so soon. It'll be another successful rotation around the sun and I think all I wanna do on that day is to be out with friends drinking.