133. strange stars

Yesterday was a good day - other than myself falling sick. I went back to Hamamatsucho and wandered around Zojoji Temple. I've always loved that place, something about it calms me and I still really love the little statues, always reminds me of that one time I went with this guy and he was being funny about it. I got hungry after walking around, so I went to the cafe next to the temple. Had a good meal, and doodled. 

I've never felt comfortable drawing in public, but yesterday I had fun doing it. Lately, I've been looking into "dark" arts again. I've been looking at  Michael Hussar's instagram a lot and am inspired once again. It's weird everytime something bad happens, I reverse and go back to where I used to be a couple of year ago. Maybe it's good to have fresh perspective again. Right now, I'm just doodling a lot, there's no one concept in my head yet, so I'll just let things be.

I hung around Hamamatsucho till about 8ish, migrating to Starbucks after my dinner. But... right now, I'm sick. Probably because of all the late nights and stress. Gonna stay in for the next couple of days till I get better.

132. para

Yesterday was a nice breakaway from the busy city of Tokyo, I head out to Mitaka to go to Ghibli Museum once again. The only reason why I went yet again was to watch the short film The Day I Bought A Star. It was  based on a story by Inoue Naohisa, who drew the world for Whisper of the Heart. I'm a huge fan of his work, so since I'm in Tokyo right now, I grabbed the chance to see this short film. I really liked the idea for the film and thought it was so cute and original. Being at Ghibli really allowed me to unwind and clear my head, I just needed some time alone to wander around. As I was writing in my own private journal, 

I just need to runaway for awhile

to clear my head

I just need a little time to heal

After being at the museum for about 2 hours, I went to check up on the Owl Cafe little sis and I had always wanted to go, (we went twice and it was closed), this time I was lucky because it was opened! There were falcons only though, they were cute but I couldn't get a good picture. Had some tea and sketched the falcons as I allowed the world to go by. Not long after, I headed back to Mitaka and went to get dinner at Shibuya and headed to Tower Records to read up on some music and art magazines. It was just so nice being alone after so long. I really needed it. Now I know what I want to do but I'm taking my time off for this week because of the mess that happened last week. 

I'll start afresh next week. Was thinking of getting my tongue pierced but might not because of work. I'm still thinking about it but we'll see how it all pans out next week. Tomorrow I'll be going out again on my own to unwind some more and think through things. I hope I can get my head straight by this week. I'm already half way there.

131. nagoya iii

Last week was kind of a mess that's why I hesitated writing about it but since it's already in the past, and I've moved on, I am able to also post the little photos I took while in Nagoya. This trip brought out the worst of people, both me and Yuri too but I'm glad we overcame everything together and are closer than ever. At the end of it, I still had fun to an extent and glad that the unexpected things happened. I'm also very over it, it seems so long ago even if it just was last week.

I still love lynch. the same, musically. But let's just say, they're tainted now and I only admire Hazuki, I always have. I will still go and see them but probably not as often. Now, moving onto bigger and better things...

130. kamakura iii & k-town

Last Friday I spent the entire day with Yuri in Kamakura. This was my third time going to there but I really don't mind it because I really do like Kamakura, only problem is it's really far from my place, it took about an hour and a half to get there, so I had to get up extra early since everything there closes at 4pm.

Was running a little late but met up with Yuri at Kamakura Station at about 11.30am, and the first place we went to was to see Daibutsu. I didn't care much for it because I've already seen but I was happy to accompany her. She was filming our day in Kamakura so I thought it was nice this time to watch a video instead of photos after photos. After taking somewhat, many photos of the Giant Buddha, we got ice-cream! I had the blueberry yogurt one and she got matcha! It was sooo goood.

I thought of going to the place little sis and I went the first time we ever got there, since it was nice and in the forest, up the mountain, so we just hopped onto a bus and god knows, we ended up in

Ofuna. Lost.

I felt bad because seriously my sense of direction that day was so bad but Yuri said it was okay and she actually thought it was funny we got lost. So, we ended up at a bus terminal at Ofuna and asked for directions back to Kamakura. We had to wait for another bus and get on the train back to Kamakura, I'm laughing at our silliness now as I write this.

We made it back to Kamakura and immediately went to Hokokuji Temple since there's where the bamboo grove is, this time, I decided to get the green tea because both me and little sis regretted not getting it the last time. Not going to let it happen again.

So we had to wait for a little bit for our matcha to be served, it was really nice sitting in the little place looking at the bamboo. I always liked how it looks kinda creepy but serene. If that makes any sense? Finally our matcha was ready and it was really nice, it also came along with two little candies shaped like the bamboo and the shrine logo. I was happy to finally get to try it since I always see it in anime. 

After our matcha, we hang out the temple taking photos and I was taking polaroids. We left Hokokuji at about 4.30pm and got on the bus back to the station, we were passing by another temple and asked Yuri if she wanted to see it because I remember it was really pretty as well. So we got off the bus, and went to the last temple for the day.

We didn't take too long at the last temple because we were both already getting hungry. We didn't eat anything other than the ice-cream earlier in the day.

After finishing up everything in Kamakura, we went to Hiyoshi to get some sushi! We just stayed there and talked for hours. Seriously, we have to stop talking so much, haha. I left Hiyoshi at about 10.30pm only to get back at 12 midnight because I missed the stop at Ikebukuro -__- Seriously, my sense of direction that day was so bad.

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Yesterday, I met up with Yuri again to run some errands for our Nagoya trip. We're already leaving tomorrow! We went to Ikebukuro first, then later on Shinjuku. I never really liked Shinjuku because it just looks dodgy to me but the part we went to yesterday was really nice and clean so I was happy.

After Shinjuku, we walked to Shin-Okubo because both of us were craving for Korean food. I really liked the place she brought me to since I haven't had Korean food like that before. Would definitely go again, it was a nice break from our usual Shibuya-Harajuku hang outs. After dinner, we walked around and got dessert at this frozen yogurt place. I really liked it as well because it was a nice place to chill plus, smoking is allowed!

Also, I haven't tried Korean style frozen yogurt so it was good. I had it with shaved ice and fruit, kinda big but still so good. Like I said, it was a nice change from the usual because instead we were listening to K-Pop (I only know a couple of songs, haha), but I didn't mind at all. We were just talking about how our lives have changed since last year. In just a short time, we kinda got everything we wanted but in strange ways and we're both working on it right now. Hopefully, at the end of it all we will both be happy. I honestly think anyone deserves to be happy unless.. well, let's not go there.

Already leaving for Nagoya tomorrow, so excited. I can't wait to see my favorite band again in three days! Hopefully I'll enjoy this concert, doubt it but still hopeful.

129. two

Finally settled into the new place. Day 6 here in Tokyo and it feels like I didn't even leave. Everything just continued where I left, with lynch., Yuri, everything. It seems like the 4 months didn't even happen to be honest, sometimes I don't even remember being back home in Melbourne. I'm actually really happy to be back in Japan. I get to spend some more time with Yuri before she goes back to California, go to my favourite bands' lives and away from all the negativity.

So far, Yuri and I have made plans to go to Kamakura this Friday and our last trip together to Nagoya. I'm really excited about going to Nagoya again because we get to see our friends and of course, for me, see my favourite band (again for the 8th time, haha). Though it'll be summer soon, and I'm not looking forward to the heat, I'm pretty sure I'll be alright because it beats being in Singapore. 

Gonna make some big decisions once I get back from Nagoya, I don't know where fate and the will of the universe is going to take me but all I want is to be happy.

The will of the universe 

will never lead you to a place 

where the mercy 

of the universe will not protect you.