017. trippy elephants

There's only a few hours before I get on that plane to Thailand.

I'm not really excited because I just feel like I've just unpacked and it doesn't feel long enough to start travelling again. Plus, we're going to a small island, typical tropical getaway, my first though. I'm not a sun, beach and surf girl at all.

On the plus side, at least I won't be travelling alone this time. I have my mom and baby sister with me so I hope they can make it enjoyable somehow. We're almost all packed and ready to go and I realize I'm still dressed for a funeral party. The amount of coloured clothes I have is pathetic.

I hope the time away from the hustle and bustle of the city and most importantly, internet, will do me some good. I feel like I'm about to breakdown soon or something because I miss my boys so much but I don't know how to even talk to them anymore.

I've been searching for inspiration again, so I re-watched Angel's Egg and chanced on a 2001 animation film called Cat Soup. I'm in love with both of these films because of how trippy they are. Almost everyone hates my taste in films. I just don't like stuff on the big screen unless it's Tim Burton.

And I'm glad to say I've started drawing again, slowly, but at least I am holding the pen again. When I get back, I'll probably search for more films to watch. I want to start creating my own girls.

One last thing, I can't believe it's my birthday next month. It just suddenly hit me today when I looked at the calendar to see June is already ending. Last year's plan to spend my birthday in Japan didn't go too well and probably was the worst birthday ever because I was stuck in Singapore alone, while the family was in Hokkaido. I was only in Tokyo the day after my birthday which is really missing the whole point but that trip was still really enjoyable with the baby sis.

I'm not expecting anything much for this year. All I want is for my black cat to wish me a happy birthday. Simple birthday wish, no? I miss talking to him but I just can't get back my feelings I had for him just a few months ago. It's more like I'm missing his friend with the crazy hair. I'm still angry at him but I miss him.

Okay enough of my emotions! I am going to stuff my face with spicy Thai food, go rock-climbing and Phi Phi island, hunt for some temples and hopefully get drunk dancing to #1Nite with the little sis in the hotel room.

See you in a few days! x

016. 天使のたまご

 

Angel's Egg ; 天使のたまご

1985

Directed by Mamoru Oshii

Story & Art by Yoshitaka Amano

015. feat. MAD

will always love this girl for loving black metal,

teaching me to cherish my life so much more,

listening to me whine about rubbish and

obsess over the novembers.

xoxo.

014. band tees and whanot

Just the other night, little sis and I were watching MTV in the wee hours of the night when My Doorbell by The White Stripes came on. It suddenly hit us that rock music is dead, once again.

Maybe we're getting older, maybe our taste of music have changed but you can't deny that there hasn't been any solid, good new "rock" band in a while. Sure, you have Foster The People or fun. but that's hardly rock because they're grouped together with the hipster indie shit and it's just getting on my nerves.

I love indie music but this trend just has to go. I can't stand how people are trying to be so "deep" or "different" and how they try to dress up all hipster, indie like and think they're so amazing when in reality, all these people are liking the same things, clothes and bands. They all look the fucking same. I don't know if this applies to Singapore only but this seriously has to stop.

I can't take another person claiming people saying that they're fucking weird when they're just like everyone else. Hi, get real, we're all the same and no matter how "different" you claim you are, you really aren't because there is definitely a group of people that likes the same things as you.

Back to music, I realized the reason why I jumped to J-rock is because over at the Western side, all my favorite bands broke up and those that are still here write about the same petty things or are just producing music for the sake of money or they like to add some computerized, dub-step, auto-tune rubbish. (In my opinion, only the GazettE has done this successfully with TOXIC. Maybe I am biased but VENOMOUS SPIDER'S WEB sounds fucking amazing and makes me want to dance and headbang at the same time.)

And as far as indie go, I used to love Sigur Ros, Death Cab For Cutie and all those indie bands but now everyone is annoying about them so I stopped and jumped to J-indie as well. At least I won't hear people talking about THE NOVEMBERS, Goliath or PLASTICZOOMS on a daily basis and honestly, over at the J-indie side, the boys dress much better with their messy hair and all black get up.

I remember I used to be so proud wearing my band tees just a few years ago and I really miss that part of me.

2009, I still love AC/DC.

2010, and I also still love Iron Maiden.

I can't stand how people wear band shirts and not even know the band. Stupidity, than why buy it? I want to start wearing all my band shirts again but I'll really have to choose wisely which band to wear and I'm not interested in buying any J-rock merch because it's so difficult to find one that I really like and on top of that, it's pricey. I'm happy with the ones my friends in bands send me.

I think I should reinvent my wardrobe again because I'm getting sick of dressing up all girly like. Maybe I will take turns into wearing band tees and pretty dresses, I have too many pretty dresses now.

I want to see a band that can really capture my attention like all those bands did all those years ago. I want to see a band that has so much charisma, I could just cry by watching them live. Bands like AFI, System of a Down, Slipknot or even a band like Mindless Self Indulgence with so much wit in their lyrics. I just want new bands like that.

It's time to go band hunting again.

013. edit

I've changed the header picture of my blog because I was getting too annoyed with it, it's like whenever I get on my page, all I see is my toys smiling back at me and I'm like "Stop smiling! There's nothing to be happy about!" So I decided to change the picture on top before I punch the screen.

I've been listening to THE NOVEMBERS a lot again, on their older album, Misstopia, now I wish I bought that album too. I'm totally in love with this picture of theirs, so I decided to use it. I've also added a picture on the side and updated the "about" page. I don't know what else I should add... it's a little too plain. 

I am already leaving for Thailand next week. That was fast, I thought I just unpacked? All this travelling...

there's also so much going on in my head and feelings I don't even know how to put in words. All I hope is for things to go back to normal and we all can be fine and dandy again.

x

012. cakeface

The week was spent meeting up with all my girlfriends. On Monday, I met up with Mad, Tuesday, Raine, Thursday, Andrea and Saturday, Steph and I have been stuffing my face with so much food for this entire week as well, especially on the sweet stuff.

Which I really shouldn't have because I've been coughing like there's no tomorrow ever since I got back from Tokyo. Actually, I think I got the cough from Tokyo, Shinpei says they'll cough a lot due to the nuclear/radiation that was caused by the tsunami/earthquake that happened last year. When I met him, he was coughing a lot too.

After meeting all my girlfriends, I think I'm about to X one of them out of my life. I've been bitching about her a lot to all my close friends because well... she's just a bitch and isn't a good friend in general. So I will try to avoid her the best that I can.

Mostly, the meet ups were made up of heart to heart talks about guys, life and about anything, really. I can't believe Mad went to search for THE NOVEMBERS on her own and she actually likes them now, plus I made her like lynch. too! *happy dance*

For Andrea, I haven't really met up with her in years because she was in London for the past few years and we hardly meet anyways, it's just that we wanted to catch up and I can't believe she is still with Benz after all these years, they've been together since we were 14, so that is 9 years already!

I met up with her for lunch at  Antoinette, the food's not bad but the desserts are bomb! I really love this, whatever it is called, pictured above. It tastes and looks so pretty. Went shopping for Taiyo's and Shinpei's gifts that day too, I couldn't find anything better for Taiyo, so I got him a Star Wars collectible. I just hope he likes it. For that idiot, I got him a really gorgeous Joy Division shirt, he better like it. I also bought a new Vivienne Westwood ring, I was trying to find a nice one in Japan, but couldn't. I'm not really a big fan of hers but some of her accessories are to die for.

Super in love with both of these. 

On Saturday, I had Japanese for dinner with Steph! Apparently, I'm still not sick of it after having it everyday for a week. I actually miss Japanese breakfast so much and parfait and argh, just everything okay. After dinner, we went to The Cookie Museum for dessert.

Mmmm, I really love the tea and all the cookie tasting and that cake and ice-cream. Oh my god, I sound like such a pig. 

I stole this from Steph's instagram, but isn't it just so pretty?

Rum & Raisin Ice-cream!

Baileys Cake!

And you know what I realized about all of us? We can be bothered to take pictures of food but not with each other? Why? Next time when I get to meet my girlfriends, I'm bringing my polaroid camera so we are forced to take photos together.

I can't believe Steph is going to Philippines for 3 years. I can't imagine not seeing her for THAT long and it makes me a little upset. I know I am or maybe moving back to Melbourne for good soon too and it's almost the same thing, so I better be prepared for all these emotional breakdowns when the time comes and I hope we can meet in Tokyo because it will be easier for us. She's only 2 hours away and I will definitely go back to Tokyo sometime in the future.

The trip to Krabi is almost settled, I think we are going there at the end of the month for 4 days? I'm not really a beach person so I hope I will enjoy the gorgeous scenery at least, or go to a spa or something. I'm actually getting quite tired of travelling but I can't complain about how good life has been to me so I'll enjoy it to the fullest.

I want more hang out time with my girlfriends.

011. iv

23rd May - 31st May 2012 ;

I can't believe I've been to Tokyo four times already. I will always love Tokyo for shopping, food, concerts and  maybe almost everything except for it's culture. During this trip, I've learned somewhat about the culture in Japan and I really don't like it.

010. minus

Sleep has been a really good friend of mine ever since I got back from Tokyo. I've been really sleep deprived for the entire trip because I simply just can't sleep when I travel alone, the consent worry of  whether or not my hotel room is haunted keeps me awake at night. I am so glad to come home to my beautiful bed even if I don't like being in this country.

The trip to Tokyo was an okay one. My emotions were haywire everyday, weirdly even with that sort of feelings, I did enjoy myself. Shopping in Ikebukuro, Harajuku and Shibuya was really fun. I always love the stuff they have there. I didn't take much photos this time because I wasn't really in the mood plus I've already been there so many times, so why take a picture again? I'll probably write about the trip entirely in another post.

This trip just made me realized that I'm actually fine being alone in a foreign country, it's definitely made me stronger as a person and also, this trip proved who is worth my time and who's not. I am thankful to the friends that have been dealing with my whiny text messages about the drama that has happened during the first few days in Tokyo. I really love and appreciate you guys.

I also want to say that I'm not interested in PLASTICZOOMS as a band anymore. After going out with Shinpei that day, I just can't seem to look at them as a band but more like friends now. I mean I've always seen them as normal people but going out with him that day just made it really clear to me that I really do care about them as people and not as a "band".